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…and I closed my eyes as you pressed your lips to mine. Love and passion filled the air. Your arms around held me tightly to your body. I could feel the heat. I was almost lost in the moment but suddenly I came to realize that your open eyes behind me were still searching for someone. I loosened my grip, I knew I needed to walk away.
I was living in fairy tales surviving those beautiful lies. White angels, sweets, chocolates, palaces, drifting hallways all were gone as I opened my eyes. Everything vanished and I found myself lying in an urban jungle with infinite imperfections. There was no crown on my head anymore, my wings had vanished and my dress was filthy. Standing barefoot I tried to close my eyes, tighter every time thinking maybe it was an illusion which will disappear and I’ll be back into my wonderland. Maybe it was a test, a punishment or a maybe game, someone will come to rescue me. I still want to believe it is only part of a dream, rubbing my eyes standing, still waiting for a call. It feels so dark, so cold, a nightmare going forever long. I want to sleep again not wanting to wake up. Those lies were beautiful…
I wish there was a messy card in a shaky handwriting to cheer me up. I wish a herd of friends just popped up with a small cake, frolicking around me, dressing me up, giving up those warm hugs with cream all over me, money being pulled out of my wallet for return treat. I wish a best friend showed up like sunshine to make my day and said- “you mad girl!! how dare you miss my gift”. Maybe between all this I would be worried about that cream on my dress, “not-so-good” photographs and those savings for project model but I wish my eyes were watery with a laughter and blush rather than that grimace I am afraid to face.